28 September 2010 @ 01:10 am
I feel like I've run out of places where I'm allowed to express my feelings. The truth is, the closer I get to someone, the less capable I am of truly expressing my feelings, because I get worried that I'll say the wrong thing and lose what I have as a result. Funny how that works, huh. I can be more open with strangers than people I actually trust.

In other news, kewl fact here: I normally have my tongue folded over when my mouth is closed, unless I'm thinking about it. I often wake up like that too, which is a bit shitty, since I find I'm more prone to biting the side of my tongue in my sleep when I leave it like that.
25 September 2010 @ 05:12 pm
Why do I exist?

What do I want to achieve in existing? Surely there is some sort of goal that I need to aspire to, presuming that existence is not merely some random occurrence?

What comes after existing? Is this the 'true' existence?

What's the point of continuously reminding me that I will go to hell if I don't do so-and-so, and that this guy died for my sins, when I don't even get the basics? I don't see why there's a need to present this concept to me when you haven't given me a foundation to work upon.